How excited am I right now. I woke up not caring about my birthday at all, I even forgot about it in those first few seconds you wake up confused out of your sleep. Got up and did all my regular things and then went to check my email when I saw one from Geni wishing me a Happy Birthday. I don't know why I decided to log into this old family tree website. Almost everyone in my family is signed up and we are all connected there. When it's someone's birthday on a tree an email goes out to everyone on it to remind them of your birthday. It also includes your age and that is where I had to stop the line. As I was logged in there I noticed the old ass picture I have up on Catamaran in Sandy Hook Bay.. that' had to be like 2010 or 11. I immediately changed it to my 8 year old self sitting on my favorite fountain in Matosinhos Portugal. I still need to go back and change that showing the age option but that is not why the Universe sent me into this Geni rabbit hole today. I noticed the family tree said I have a half sister, when i clicked on the picture it was me in 2009.. I must of created a different account at one point. Then I noticed she.. me.. had a whole family tree up. I FOUND IT!! I can't believe I found it.
When my dad got diagnosed with Melanoma and getting Interferon chemo treatment up at Saint Barnabas twice a week, I used to go with him and one day I decided to pick his brain. My father had the most amazing memory and he told the best stories. He was quiet because he was an observer and he paid attention to everything. I remember that year we started his family tree from his grandparents and on.. It was fun doing this with him that afternoon because he remembered everyone's middle name and everything. I gave up on this project because I lost this list. One day I log into Geni and the tree isn't there and I got so upset. What I found today was my birthday gift from my dad... I feel him this morning and he was in my dreams last night. We were in Torreira. I don't know people don't believe in life after death. Energy never dies.. I think my father was a really good friend in a past life with me. I beleive in reincarnation and I believe when we come down to the earth plane to learn our lessons, sometimes a friend tags along to help you out. His short time here was to make sure there was a balance in my home life. He gave me that normalcy the best way he could.
When I went to Portugal in 2022 I went to the cemetery and took pictures of all grave sites, because they all have photos in Europe. Now I can start adding the pictures to the family tree I'm building. Everyone should be interested in their genealogy. In order to understand myself, I need to understand my mother, her mother, her mother's mother. Our ancestors are part of our DNA..they are in us. I did that dna kit with ancestory and of course i'm 98% from the region my parents are from in Portugal. Hundreds of years of my ancestors being near the ocean, is it no wonder I was like a fish the first time my dad introduced me to the waters of Sandy Hook Bay? The beach is my familiar place. That is why I used to love to go the music conference in Miami all those years. We didn't even go to the sand, just being on that rooftop looking at the ocean, smelling the air, was it. I wish I was near the ocean now at this moment instead of looking out into gloomy day here in Newark.
I always say every year that I going to Jamaica for my birthday. I'll say it again... Maybe next year.
Off to take my birthday shower where I use water to manifest my dreams for next year.
Thanks for the gift dad.
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